Downward Spiral

Why do these things tend to happen? Like dominoes, once one begins to fall then it seems everything else follows its example. I really don't mean for this to be a pity party but I just need to vent...a little at least. If you have been reading my posts over the last while, you know that my hubby is still unemployed and is still actively trying to find a new job. I am not venting about that, per se, since lots of people in our country are in the same boat we are. But it just seems that hubby and I cannot seem to catch a break and all of it adding up is starting to make a crack in my tough skin I have tried to develop.

Over the last 2-3 weeks, hubby has been battling a sinus infection. He suffers from them off and on over the years so it wasn't anything new, or so we thought. Well, on January 22nd he went to the doctor and was given some antiobiotics and was told to call back if he wasn't better by the time the medicine was gone. Well the 10 day supply ended yesterday and he is not any better so he called on Friday and made an appt for this morning at 9:30 am. Well the doctor diagnosed him with chronic sinusitis and gave him a steroid shot in the office, a different antiobiotic and a steroid nasal spray. And he told hubby that if he was not any better in another week to come back in and then he would have to undergo xrays and go from there.

When hubby called me to tell me this, I just about crumbled. My faith and my hope seem to be wavering - I know I am putting the "cart before the horse" here but I just can't seem to help it. The looking for a new job, the sinus problems which have not cleared up yet....and on top of that hubby has had braces on his teeth for almost two years now with no ortho appts. My parents graciously said they would help pay for the treatment so hubby can get them taken care of and off his teeth before they start to do damage for being on so long without maintenance. So he has an appt a week from today at 3:30 for a consultation with my old ortho doctor so he can tell us how long, if anything, hubby will need to continue to wear them and when we might be able to take them off. So that is another thing that needs to be taken care of - not to mention all the normal bills, car stuff, etc. *SIGH*

I am sorry - I don't mean to sound like I am picking on hubby for I really am not. It is not his fault - he doesn't want this stuff any more than I do and marriage means being there during the good times and the bad. But I am so longing for the good times. And I am trying SO hard to not think of all the things we are having to do without in the meantime...like I haven't had a haircut in over six to eight months. It is growing so long which is making it harder for me to manage. We only go out when one of our parents graciously takes us out and pays for us. I know not eating out is NOT the end all of the world but just little things like that I miss. Sorry to dump all this on you guys...I know it isn't a happy go-lucky post. I really shouldn't be focusing on myself...I should be posting and prayers for others, like my dear friend Steffany who found out that her father has skin cancer, or for AllyJo's husband who is having to go through his mother's possessions after she passed. I should be more thankful that we are not going through one of these situations....one more thing I need to work on.

So, I guess, my long post is simply meant to ask you to pray for us. We would appreciate it.