How does one accept? This seems to be the underlying issue I have been wrestling with for last almost two months. I didn't drop off the face of the earth but it was very nice to hear from my mother-in-law who said she missed my blog. So I have decided to start posting again and I have been reading my friends' blogs daily, even if I haven't been posting.
Back in the middle of March I started having some stomach issues - going to bed with upset stomach and waking up with some dull cramps. This happened for a couple of days until I finally took hubby's advice and went to the doctor. I was told that I have an reflux problem, a less common one in the fact that I don't have the sensation of acid in my throat - mine is more constant turning of my stomach from overproduction of acid. So I was given a prescription to take for two weeks and some blood work was drawn. When I returned for my follow up appt two weeks later, I was SO relieved to hear that my lab work was ALL normal! However, I was switched to an older form of the drug I had been taking which is less expensive than the current samples I took for two weeks. I was instructed to take the new drug for 3 months and to come back in for it didn't seem to help as much as the samples I took.
Well, I thought I was doing well and back on the right track - I had taken the older drug for 9 days without any problems. On day 10 & 11 I woke up in the middle of the night with the cramping and uncomfortableness again. I was able to roll onto my side and fall back asleep without too much hassle but for the last 2 days I have been fighting off and on again stomach cramps. Hubby requested, firmly, that I go back to see the doctor again and maybe get switched back to the original medicine I was taking. So I have an appt this afternoon at 2:45 to see what the doctor thinks. The changes over the last 4 days hasn't been a positive thing for me. It is somewhat frustrating. I just want to be normal, I want to be able to enjoy everything and not be constantly fighting a stomach issue. I guess the strangest part for me is that I have no idea what triggered these changes to occur. Part of me wonders if it isn't stress mixed with the overproduction of acid. Last week was HORRENDOUS for me at work, things just kept coming and coming.
So to make a LONG post shorter, hubby thinks I need to try and learn to accept things that are out of my control. To try and enjoy the good things in life instead of focusing on the negative. But how does one do that?? I will be honest and say that I have been struggling with my faith lately as well - I try and pray but it is hard for I don't feel like I am getting answers. Sorry, didn't mean for this post to be such a downer, but this is my current situation - hoping it will change VERY soon!
7 comments:
I am so sorry you are going through all of this. I pray that you start to feel better soon and get some answers. I know it is hard to keep the faith during times like this, trust me I am going through a health thing right now with little to no answers. Just remember that God is there even when it doesn't feel like it. Just keep praying and don't let the devil win. I am praying for you
STOPPED BY FOR A VISIT.SORRY TO HEAR YOUR GOING THROUGH SO MUCH.I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU.MAY GOD BLESS YOU! BLASSINGS, FAYE
Hugs and prayers!
I hate stomach issues, they can put such a cramp in your lifestyle. Are you still doing some quiet thing everyday? I find that helps with stress a lot.
Duh...meant quiet time.
I hope you're feeling better. Bless your heart. Hang in there. I always think about you.
Sorry again to hear about your troubles. We decided to give you a nice shiny reward, though, so that's nice isn't it? Stop by the blog to pick it up.
Rebecca- I had no idea you were going through such trials! I feel you on the stomach discomfort-- I spent the first five months of my pregnancy very sick! I do think that I also had to learn to accept that I couldn't control what was happening. Through it all, God was faithful and taught me so much about His sovereignty. When I would have to go get sick in the bathroom, I used to say to myself, "God is with me and his hand is on my body." Even with all the dehydration and misery- He taught me to depend on Him for my hope and joy. You will get through this trial. Blessings
-Rachel
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