How does one accept? This seems to be the underlying issue I have been wrestling with for last almost two months. I didn't drop off the face of the earth but it was very nice to hear from my mother-in-law who said she missed my blog. So I have decided to start posting again and I have been reading my friends' blogs daily, even if I haven't been posting.
Back in the middle of March I started having some stomach issues - going to bed with upset stomach and waking up with some dull cramps. This happened for a couple of days until I finally took hubby's advice and went to the doctor. I was told that I have an reflux problem, a less common one in the fact that I don't have the sensation of acid in my throat - mine is more constant turning of my stomach from overproduction of acid. So I was given a prescription to take for two weeks and some blood work was drawn. When I returned for my follow up appt two weeks later, I was SO relieved to hear that my lab work was ALL normal! However, I was switched to an older form of the drug I had been taking which is less expensive than the current samples I took for two weeks. I was instructed to take the new drug for 3 months and to come back in for it didn't seem to help as much as the samples I took.
Well, I thought I was doing well and back on the right track - I had taken the older drug for 9 days without any problems. On day 10 & 11 I woke up in the middle of the night with the cramping and uncomfortableness again. I was able to roll onto my side and fall back asleep without too much hassle but for the last 2 days I have been fighting off and on again stomach cramps. Hubby requested, firmly, that I go back to see the doctor again and maybe get switched back to the original medicine I was taking. So I have an appt this afternoon at 2:45 to see what the doctor thinks. The changes over the last 4 days hasn't been a positive thing for me. It is somewhat frustrating. I just want to be normal, I want to be able to enjoy everything and not be constantly fighting a stomach issue. I guess the strangest part for me is that I have no idea what triggered these changes to occur. Part of me wonders if it isn't stress mixed with the overproduction of acid. Last week was HORRENDOUS for me at work, things just kept coming and coming.
So to make a LONG post shorter, hubby thinks I need to try and learn to accept things that are out of my control. To try and enjoy the good things in life instead of focusing on the negative. But how does one do that?? I will be honest and say that I have been struggling with my faith lately as well - I try and pray but it is hard for I don't feel like I am getting answers. Sorry, didn't mean for this post to be such a downer, but this is my current situation - hoping it will change VERY soon!
